Friday, February 4, 2011

Day 40....

WHY..

I hate being me.

Why can't I just be satisfied with the damn things I have in hands?

WHY!

I want that, I want this. DAMN.

why.....

why do I want to be like her?

The pretty skin. The perfect height. The perfect life.

Where is my self-integrity? Where? Where?! WHERE??!!!

Why do I look so down on myself? Why do I look so high on her?

Why do I WANT to be her?

What does she have that I don't?

EVERYTHING I DON'T HAVE.

I......

hate myself

I swore to myself never to look at her like the way I used to.

But I can't even keep a damn swear to myself......

I turning back....

Turning back into the old ugly self.....

I can't.

WHY?

NOOOOOO.

I hate myself.




I guess I'm still searching for my self-integrity.

My Life.

















Is so simple.

Yet so complicated.











I hate myself.

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