Day 26...

I wrote a few poems today. Not exactly poems but a some sentences about how complicated and tired I felt today.

The first one is to the world:

I'm sick. Sick of everything in my life.

I'm sick. Like crazy and all.

When I try to get something, I try but all that ends up putting me in horrible madness.

The image of me which I cared to keep for some people in my life is ruined.

All the people I love don't care about me.

My reputation. My image. All gone.

I'm sick

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Second one is to somebody:

I looked at you from far, I hear a crack in me,

I cannot hide the truth from myself,

I know it in me, that I will never get you,

At least your image can flutter in my restless mind,

Then I can feel better,

Like a smothering touch of an angel.

I see you, you see me,

Perhaps I'm just another girl in your school,

And deep down inside I know you'll never want to know me,

I try to do everything to just get a peek at you,

That never can satisfied my heart's desire.

Two of us,

Can be together,

If only God's gracious hands tie our fates together,

But for now,

Let us only meet in dreams,

For that is the most I can wish for.

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This one is for my friend:

I'm sorry,

For treating you this way,

For being so self centered,

And for making your heart throb with problems,

You are my friend,

assisting me in every way to help me achieve my goals,

But I know my goals are too high for me,

even your help might not aid me in achieving it.

But thank you.

And

I'm sorry.